Middle of the night….

It's now midnight, well a bit after but that's ok

Sean is miserable. He doesn't want me to hold him anymore, he's running a fever, he won't drink anything, he won't take a popsicle, won't take jello, won't take ice cream, won't take anything. I've been up with him all night, he doses off for a little while, wakes up crying/choking. This totally sucks. I feel helpless, and I can't make my little boy feel better. I'm glad I got a good nights sleep last night or I'd be pretty bad off right now. He doesn't even wanting me touching him right now, hence the typing of a blog while sitting next to him while he watches Dora Saves the Day! I just don't know what else to do. I've been making him take small sips, and small bites of jello when he won't take a sip of anything. I know he has to keep hydrated, along with keeping his throat and mouth moist. I've had to basically force him to do the liquids and the jello for the last 2 ½ hours as he's been awake. He went to sleep so nicely and woke up chocking and gasping for air which is scary for everyone involved! So now we've been up for awhile, through the buzz of the codine, and now got another dose, and I'm hoping this one helps! I just feel useless right now. I can just imagine what it would be like without the codine in him. I think this is miserable, that would be even worse!

Well I'm going to go see if I can get him to drink something now. Wish me luck! My love to all.

Here are some pics to brighten the day

Sean is doing alright tonight. Poor thing, after Emma got here, he was so excited and started playing around with her, growling and hissing playing tigers, I tried to get him to stop but they were just so excited to see eachother. Well needless to say, after we got them calmed down his throat started hurting again, so I gave him his antibiotics and then his pain meds. The pain meds I think burned his poor throat after he did that, so about 5 minutes after I gave it to him he started crying so bad that his throat hurt and he wanted me to make it better! I don't think I've ever felt more useless! Chris took him on his lap while I got him some ice for the bag that ties around his throat, and some ice cream. "just plain vanilla" he says :( God it was horrible, I started crying myself! Got him calmed down, and the ice cream and ice seems to have helped, and the drugs have kicked in so he's kinda out there now, but feeling better at least! Thank goodness for that! Hopefully the night goes smoother now that all the girls are in bed. We were snuggling on the matress on the floor in the living room watching the first Narnia movie, and he relaxed enough for me to get this out really quickly! Hope you guys enjoy the pictures as much as I do.

Skylynn was being a little diva, she picked out the hat, necklace, bag,and sandals to go with her dress that morning. She was so cute! Sean was outside drawing shapes and such with his chalk, and Serena was just into as much as she could be, including riding the teeter totter with Sean and Sky! Hope you enjoy them. If you want any of them to print out, just let me know and I'll email you the .jpeg so you can get a good picture!

Our love to all, and thanks, Tiffany and Family

Sean’s Surgery

So Sean had his surgery this morning, and all went well. He impressed everyone with how well he did! He only got nervous when the doctor showed up to take him back. The anesthesiologist told him what was going to happen, rather than me, which scored big points with me, cause I know Sean wanted to know. So he went through it fine, didn't even cry when he woke up! I was so proud of him, he did so well. We went to Walgreens afterwards, so aunt Jen could pick out a toy with him because he was so brave and did so well. He got a play-doh fun factory thing. Nice quite toy. He got a few fish too since his frog died, and I figured that he could have a new pet and would make a nice thing for after he got home. Audrey was kind enough to get the fish and stuff while we were out. She also got him a Star Wars and Star Trek toys. The star wars is a R-4 unit that has a remote, and the Star Trek one is the transporter with Mr. Scott. And he got the Beethoven movie. She spoiled him J. But it's been a pretty good day so far. He's been bouncing off the walls since we got home. He's so hyper, just wants to play. I gave him some of his Tylenol with codine in it to start keeping ahead of the pain. But you can't even tell I gave it to him almost half an hour ago. I'm waiting for it to kick in! He's even more hyper than he normally is today too! He was all excited because he got to have yogurt and ice cream for lunch. It'll be an interesting day, and it looks like it'll be even more interesting day as it goes on but I'm just glad that he's doing as well as he has. Every time he starts to relax, he pops himself up and starts moving again, I think he's trying to keep himself awake, it's cute, but it is tiring to keep telling him to laydown and relax every few minutes. Ah well such as life huh? Well I'm going to go get him something to drink now. Have a wonderful day!

 

Love everyone, Tiff

Did my CT scan today

So I went and did my CT (CAT) Scan of my sinus cavities today. They did it with no contrast at least so my mouth didn't taste funky for hours afterwards so that's good news! They said my Dr. should have the results end of this week, beginning of next. I'm praying for the end of this week as I want to know what's going on. I got to look at the pictures after they took them it was pretty cool. Now I couldn't see anything on them of course, but hopefully the doctors see something on them! I'm tired of the ear pain, the dizzy spells, the nausea, the headaches, and now I'm getting the pain my face again. I just want to know what's going on, and then have a course of action to follow to get it taken care of! It's making it difficult for me to take care of the kids, which kills me. Chris finally convinced me to let the kids go to Debi's house yesterday so I could get some rest. Have to admit it did help me some. I've been taking my vicodine, and it's gotten to the point now that I can take one of them, it takes the edge off of the pain, and I'm not completely tipsy. Which is not good, means I'm either getting a tolerance for the medicine, or the pain is that intense… Not sure which, or little of both. So Sky's wart on her foot is doing better, seems to be almost completely gone, Serena now has a diaper rash that seems to be getting worse with the Nystatin on it. Hopefully it gets it under control tonight or I have to call and make her an appt tomorrow. Sean's surgery is Friday. I'm nervous about it. I know that it's no big deal, getting tonsils and adenoids out in this day and age is a normal and quick procedure, but those of you who know me, know I play the what if game in my head. I have to be there at 7:15 in the morning, which means that I have to be out of the house by 6:45 without taking the kids to Debi's house. Not sure if I'm going to take them or Chris. I don't want him to be stressed trying to take them to Debi's house and back home again make it to work on time. I'm going to put him in his pj's and going to take his cupcake doggie, and his star wars blanket. I'm just worried that he'll be in so much pain I guess, and that I won't be able to help him through it. Jennifer is going to be there with me, lending me a little anti-freak out support J. Chris wasn't able to get the morning off from work, so he gets to sit here at home worrying while he's working. But all will turn out ok. I have faith in that. Well gotta go run to the store to get milk and such. I love you all and ttys.

I actually made two dresses successfully!!

So I actually was able to make two dresses from scratch successfully in the last day and a half!! Mom came over yesterday, showed me how the patterns work, and got me started. Finished Emma's dress this afternoon about 2, and then made Sky's this evening! They are to cute. They're coordinating dresses hehehhee

Here's the pictures! All I have left on Emma's is the shoulder straps and the bottom hem, and I need her to be able to do that, and for Sky's I need to put the zipper on, and do the same as Emma's. But I think that they're just darling!

Continuation of Open Mindedness

So I know that I have an open mind, and I know that sometimes it pisses a lot of people off, but what I don't get is those that are stuck so far inside of what they think is the "Godly" or right thing that they don't see the truth plain as the day on their faces! They're judging people. Something, per the bible they don't have the right to do! They're saying you can't do this, you can't do that, you'll have your judgment on judgment day. That's fine, but don't rub it in their faces that they're the minority, don't deny them any rights that you yourself enjoy, let them make their own choices as God has said every "man" that is created has that choice. The choice to make their own decisions and actions in their life. Step out of your close minded religions and look at the world. Really look at it. Man kind has always had the choice in what that person does or does not do in their life. Some say that we have a destiny pre-ordained in our life, but ultimately the choices that we make alter that destiny on a moment by moment basis. God has not said that if you're straight you'll go to heaven, if you're gay you'll go to hell. God has stated repeatedly that He loves each and every one of His children regardless of what they've done in their lives. He forgives murderers and rapists. Us as a society shun these people (I know I do), and those that are in the majority of religious aspects also spout that God forgives them, and they aren't judging them. It's those that cannot accept the fact that we are human, and therefore fallible and DO judge people that give the religious factions a bad name. I am not speaking just of Christians, there are also many other religions in the world that also spout don't judge, they say they don't, but at a glance, at a learned misdeed, the judgment is immediate and takes a lifetime to change. That is human nature. As we work on ourselves we can work on this, but usually in the zealousness of the "Godly" mindset a lot of judgment is passed and never is the responsibility assumed that they passed this judgment on their fellow man as God has decreed them not to!

I know that I have had a few things in my life go wrong, I've not made the best choices in the world, I know I've judged people, and everyday I try to not do that. I try, but I'm not perfect, so I still do some judging and I try to make atonement for me when I can. Let us truly live in our society as all men are created equal. Wouldn't that be nice? That we actually live by what we profess is what the backbone of our civilization and as our country. Why do we have to beat a section of our society down into the ground and then go "oh look, I've mistreated you, here let me lend you a hand up and stab you in the back as I do it?" We've done it countless times in our history as America. Now we're doing it to another section of our community. Our Gay Community! We're saying "yeah you have the same rights as us straight people, oh but wait you can't have the same rights as us, you can have some of them, you can live together, love each other, if you're able to reproduce ONE of you can be the parent of the child you have, but you can't get married. You can have insurance together, you can call yourselves what ever you wish, but you can't be recongnized by the law (which is supposed to be separated from "church") as an actual couple because the "church" doesn't recognize the same sex marriages. They only recognize the one between a man and a woman. But some of these churches recognize the marriage of a man or a woman to God Himself…. Explain that one to me! Ah but alas different tangent! So we can recognize the "sanctity of marriage" as between a man and a woman, which puts the separation of Church and State OUT of the water btw, or we can realize that we still don't have the separation of church and state and do this and allow these people the right to do what they wish with THEIR lives. Their lives do not directly change yours or influence your life if you do not have someone of said minority in your life. If you do and you call them your friends, STOP being hypocritical and support them in their happiness as a TRUE friend would do! Believe what you want to believe, but DO NOT shove it down other peoples lives. Don't make what you believe be the governing factor in what someone else should believe or the way someone else can live their life.

Please just open your eyes to the world and use your common sense people!

And with that I'm getting off my soap box again. Have a wonderful weekend.

Movies

This was the cup she pulled from the dishwasher, was too cute not to share!



This was playing pop goes the weasel with the kids!

Contriversial Subject: Gay marriage, I'm for it....

So my point has always been, if two people love eachother, why should they not be allowed to make a life long commitment of that love regardless if they're male and female couple or not? Why do we as a "society" think that marriage has to be man to woman? For centruries mankind has had the gay and lesbian groups in our midst, they used to be accepted without a problem. Now that we've become "civiliazed" it's no longer accepted. Well as a society, we now "no longer have issues with the gay population" but we refuse to "allow" them the rights that we all share of marriage as straight people. I do not believe that is an accurate way to think of things. As our society grows around us, we close our eyes to the things that are right and the things that should be accepted around us. The "outsiders" as many believe they are, (I personally don't) should have the same equal rights that the straight people do! We tell them we don't discreminate, we don't hate you, but you can't have the same rights that we do. How is that equal rights? Explain that to me!

I understand that this country was created under mans conception of God. I have no problems with this. God has nothing to with the rights of a person in our courts. That has been proven time and again in our judicial system. Leave God outta this. He has no reason to be in it. God does not like to be used as a standing stone in conflict! Many wars have been faught in the name of God, which I'm sure he doesn't appreciate, this is just another type of war that is being faught in His name. Get over it people! The gay and lesbian community is in our world. If you don't like it, go stick your head in the sand already. They aren't going anywhere. Let them have the right to say this is the one that I love, and this is the person that I am going to spend the rest of my life with. Let them marry. We straight people have the right to do this, why not them? All because both are men, or both are women? Whats the problem? If our society conforms to the idea (as it should) why would it "Corrupt our children and society if we allow this" as I read in a friends blog.

Sorry if I went on a rant, but this is a subject I feel VERY strongly about. The gay community has had a strong background in my life, and there aint a damn thing wrong with either my sister or I! We're both married and have children. Where does it say that if the mothers are gay the children will be too? Well I hate to break it to you, but I DON'T believe them as my mother was, my aunt is, I grew up in that community, and neither of us is!

I'm going to get off my soap box now. Ya'll have a good night. I welcome responses and messages.

My love to all

Tiffany