People can be beyond me sometimes!

Just fair warning, I'm venting so there will be profanity....

I don't get why after you've known someone for 12 years, why all of a sudden over the last, I don't know, year and half or so they have to go dig themselves down into a hole and not freaking talk to you unless you pester them into it. They say "oh yeah, we're still family, we're still friends," but they don't fucking contact you except by text message. I'm sorry, a friendship cannot be fun soley via text message. Some text  messaging is fine, but there has to be some voice contact over the phone, and in person for christ's sake! I understand you're not a big phone talker, I get that, some people aren't. But ok, I'm not going to sit here and try and corridinate schedules via text message because that'll take an hour, vs a five minute phone call. Or when I do try an corridinate something, oh we're busy, oh we can't do that. They only time really in the last year that we've hung out, has been childrens birthday parties, and thats when I've pushed it. My son loves them, I love them, my daughters love them, but it's really starting to piss me the fuck off. I mean, I call her, I text message her, I get a phone call back from her damn husband, not her! Or a text back from her husband, not her. What am I not good enough for you any more? Have you moved onto better friends than I? Do you just not want anything to do with me anymore?? If thats the case then fucking tell me and I'll leave you the hell alone and tell my kids that they're not around anymore. It happens. But damn, just tell me. I mean, I have no problems helping. I've shown that in the past, but you are alienating a HUGE friend. Figure it out. Seriously. Stop hiding in your god damn house, if you need help ask for it, and actually have some contact outside of your house and  of right where you live. It's not healthy! And I am so worried for you because of it that it's not even funny, but I try to get in and I get pushed back out again. I've done the battle for two years now, and I'm about sick of it. I can only take getting pushed in and out of your life so many times before I say fuck it all, I'm gone, regardless of the consequences on my concience or our kids. Get it together, figure out that you have friendships that YOU also have to nurture, not just the other fucking people, or get the god damn balls to say "Go away!"

Ok I'm done now, going back to my day....